All about 2020 and a bit about 2021

Well, where on earth do I begin? Let’s not dwell on the whole craziness of 2020 from a global point of view since that will be covered by lots of other people more knowledgeable and fluent than me. I will just mention here that I am disgusted with the way this pandemic has been handled by governments globally and by individuals who don’t seem to be taking it seriously. This virus should have been contained by a global shutdown of a minimum of 1 month with nobody allowed out of their homes for any reason whatsoever and food and essential items being distributed by the army. Only essential workers such as electricity and power supplies and telecommunications workers should be allowed to work and even then only under strict supervision and stringent rules. I believe that a total, global lockdown would have eliminated this virus after a month or two and we would have been able to return to normality in the summer. Now we are in a right old mess that only God can sort out.

 Covid-19 has affected me personally but not as much as it has affected many people in the world. I have still gone out to work most days and my lifestyle has not had to drastically alter because of this virus. This is mostly because my personal lifestyle is not one of meetings and social events. I much prefer to be on my own with a good book and a coffee so adapting to staying at home isn’t that much different to normal for me.

I will remember this year mostly for the amount of time ive had to have off due to my own personal health and that of my family. Personally, I have had to have time off for stress and for a burst nasal polyp which is still ongoing. For my family, my wife has ongoing health issues that I have had to have time off for but my mum is the biggest reason for the majority of my time off this year. she had a stroke in late September and was admitted to hospital. As I am her primary carer and the only member of this household who can currently drive it was my responsibility to be her contact. The covid rules only allowed 1 authorised visitor and that had to be me. So, in order to help mum I had to book off work for 2 months. I then managed to return to work for a total on 1 whole shift before the hospital rang me to order me to isolate as mum had contracted covid. Then I returned to work for 3 weeks and am now off with my nasal problems.

What this has taught me is not to rely on work as a necessity. I need to generate a different form of income stream that allows me to be able to accommodate all the other pressures on my life right now, from my own, personal health to that of my family.

So now to 2021. This is the year I intend to expand my writing and my voiceover skills to a level that will give me an income stream. More on this in future entries. I am currently working on my plan for 2021.

Another area I want to focus on is my faith. It is time for me to finally engage fully with Christ. To this end I am going to begin my Theology studies in 2021. My aim is to eventually study Theology formally and get a qualification in it. At the moment I don’t know where this will lead but I am going to go along with my feelings on this matter.

Also in 2021 I want to increase my reading levels to try to get back to the amount of reading I used to do back when I was a teenager. To begin with I want to aim for 2 full books per month. I will update my goodreads profile to keep track of this.

Well, that’s all for now. My brief summary of 2020 and an even more brief look at 2021.

More to come as I start a new chapter in my life story.

Listening to God

Do you ever have days where nothing seems to go right, however hard you try? Everything you touch seems to break or everything you do is twice as much work as it should be? I had one of those days yesterday. I was willing and eager to get on with the tasks I had assigned myself for the day but I just couldn’t get going. It all started off well. We had to take a parcel out to one of the customers of Bev’s business who hadn’t received anything in the post. Despite the address being a new build that didn’t even show up on Google maps, we managed to find the house easily and deliver the masks. We even found a Subway open on the way home to get lunch. Everything seemed to be going so smoothly that I thought I would get the lawnmower out and attack the jungle that we call the garden. I managed to tidy the front garden without incident and moved on to tackle the back garden and this is where things started to fall apart. As soon as I began I started to feel a bit faint. Instead of taking this as a sign to pack up for the day I tried to push on. This was a big mistake as I ended up cutting through the electric cable of the lawnmower. Not quite the triumphant ending to the day I had anticipated. So now we are going to buy a cordless lawnmower and the grass will have to grow a bit more while we wait for it to be delivered.

I think most of us have days like this don’t we? The problem is that we don’t listen to what we are being told. I don’t mean what other people are telling us, I mean listening to our inner voice, the one in our head that is telling us to slow down or even stop what we are doing and do something else instead. This “inner voice” isn’t always an audible voice, it could be a feeling too. It could be that you feel tired, like I did yesterday, or it could be a feeling of fear or even simply just an uncomfortable sense that something isn’t quite right. We need to make ourselves more aware of these feelings and listen to them because it is actually God talking to us. God doesn’t always speak to us in the obvious way, in fact I believe God is talking to us all the while, but we don’t always listen.

At this point, if I were a Pastor or preacher, I would quote some inspirational verse from the bible to neatly summarise the message I’m trying to convey. I’m not blessed with enough knowledge of the bible to be able to do this, but I suggest that you look in the New Testament at some of the teachings of Jesus. I know there Is a story he taught about a rich man who gave his sons some bags of money and told them to look after his riches while he was away on holiday. When he returned he called his sons to him and one of them had put the money to work and doubled it while the other one just buried the money and didn’t work to make anymore. The one who doubled the money got a reward while the other, lazy one, got moaned at. The moral is, God has given us all a skill or talent, it is up to us to find out what this talent is and use it to make this world a better place for everyone and once we begin to do this, God will reward us in some way.

So from now on I’m going to pay more attention to the little signs around me. That bad feeling I get about something, that frustration when I cant seem to make progress in something. Even the annoyance when the weather changes and I have to alter my plans. This is all God speaking to us, guiding us, helping us to get back to his plan for us. It could be that his plan for us is simply to read a book when we had planned to build a wall. We might end up reading about an easier or cheaper method to build that wall, remember, God is in control and if we allow him to guide us then we will be rewarded.

Edit, the story of the rich man and his sons is in Matthew 25:14-30 and in Luke 19:12-26